This article was completed at 1 a.m., it's really a late-night Emo
A Novice#
In 2019, while blogs were gradually declining, I resolutely entered this ocean and established my own "island". But a island must have a foundation, right? So I rented a VPS from BandwagonHost and bought a domain nameat that time, I didn't even know what a domain name was for, I just knew it could be accessed, and chose the most popular WP as the backend, starting a career as a blogger.
At that time, I felt so proud of myself as a novice. I could already publish articles online while my peers were still dominating the gamea classic Dunning-Kruger effect.
So, back then, I wrote a lot of low-quality articles similar to those on low-quality websites, without any substance. Looking back now, it's really embarrassingimagine someone loudly reading your middle school QQ space.
Admiring the Masters#
But a novice can't stay a novice forever. After getting to know many great bloggers, I realized how naive I was. There were so many masters who had been writing blogs for decades, and there was the lovely DIYgod~
Sensitivity#
In the middle of 2020, some things in life plunged me into a low point. I deleted all my old articles. And this has led me to constantly feel inferior until now, being very sensitive to others' opinions, always trying to please others and suppress myself as much as possible.
At the end of 2021, I decided to register a new identity and start writing blogs againnow it seems more like low-quality tutorials. But since then, I started to worry about whether my articles would be ridiculed, whether my expressions were professional enough, and whether my ideas were too naive. These negative emotions made me lose sight of the original intention of writing blogs.
However, when I calmed down and reflected, I realized that I made a mistake, which was treating blogging as a competition rather than a way of sharing and communicating. I started to seek recognition from others instead of enjoying the pleasure of writing.
Lost#
Constantly changing blog themes, installing various plugins, and optimizing the loading speed of the blog.
From WordPress to Gridea, and then to Hexo-Fluid, Hexo-Cards, constantly changing blog themes, trying to find the most beautiful, attractive, and high-quality themes, while neglecting the quality and value of blog content.
This means that I got lost in the pursuit of the external appearance of the blog and forgot the original intention and meaning of the blog.
Original Intention#
Returning to the original intention, I want to re-understand the meaning of writing blogs.
Writing blogs is not about showing how professional or greator how bad I am, but about sharing my experiences and thoughts, and establishing an interactive and communicative relationship with readers. Everyone has their own unique perspective and life experiences, and each blog has its own value. We should not compare ourselves with others, but appreciate and respect everyone's writing style and expression.
If we treat blogging as a competition, we will lose the original intention and joy of writing. On the contrary, if we treat blogging as a way of sharing and communicating, we can express our thoughts more freely, connect with more people, and gain more growth and inspiration.
Finally#
So, I have decided to return to the original intention, learn to enjoy the process of writing blogs, share with sincerity, communicate with sincerity, feel with sincerity, and grow with sincerity.
I think I should proudly say to all readers, "Thank you for reading!"